haha.. i was clearing part of my shelf and i found my so called first beloved necklace. my mum bought it. haha. well... i'm wearing it right now, and i also found this!!!
i took them outta the box and re arranged it.

so here u go, the re arranged version.... and i find myself scrutinising almost every single ad these days. scares the hell out of me. Especially those that are deceptively simplistic and those which are just a word... yes there are adverts with just a word. i never wanted to be like this! darn, i have to psycho myself into ignorance. The 'it doesnt matter what you know' position. for the sole purpose of keeping my sanity.

Sighs.Rushed all the way to school just to get locked out again..... the second time....
First time, i was 7min late, today, i think about the same.
Wtf? And just cos she got caught in traffic on a rainy morning ONCE, she thinks that bad traffic is rare in Singapore???
This just totally kills all motivation to go to her class. Worse, it's my only lecture for the day damnit.
It doesnt help that i did badly for the mid term yesterday. All cos i didnt write it down. I had hoped for my graphical memory to work well enough......feeling real pissed off.
Hate it. Woke up smiling, now i think it might just get wiped off my face.
She can really wipe all smiles from all us students here.
Shit. Anyhow, i'm gonna sell some old stuff pretty soon, but i currently dont really know how. Need some help. Any ideas?
Or maybe i'll just post it up here. who ever wanna get it, can name your price, you think about how much it's worth. BUT not all are through bidding. i'll state my prices for these items.
Cya!!

Written while waiting for break to get in class..........................)=

I'll be loving you forever

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart
You'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun
You are my life
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at nite
You're alwayz round
When I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Wanna spend forever with you

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still forever

We've had our fun
And we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more
That I could have give (I could have give)
You make loving you
So easy for me
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Wanna share forever with you

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still forever

And girl I pray you'll leave me never
Course this is a world where love's often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do wat it takes that make it rite
Cuz I'll love you
Forever
No one can tear us apart

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart
And tore it apart
I would love you still forever

wow.
wheeee...
i'm going back to salsa again.
that's great. in fact, i love dancing. and i'm looking forward to the intermediate windsurfing course.
mid term for finance on monday!!!!!
studying for finance....and adverting that's on wednesday.
loads to keep me busy. hahah. i actually perfer to be busy?
gotta be kidding.

oh well, training for work life.

so pissed. so so pissed.
i wanna bash someone up.

can i?
--->>no no, dont do that, no use

yup. it's useless. cos no result. wtf..........................
.......i wanna watch WANTED!!!
and i was so blur today. can feel it.
darn.

oh ya, this. took a test after reading stephanie's blog, i wonder if the machine programmer had alcohol when he was programming it.
do u think it's accurate??
ok, i should go back to doing finance homework.
--->>yup, i'm much better after 'venting' or typing it out.

nvr too late huh?

oh well. so the saying goes, but i think my take is that
it feels kinda late for certain things,

example would be :
too late for regrets cos things happen for a reason, the only reason is that it makes you stronger, IF AND ONLY IF you learnt something from it.

too late for choices after you make a decision, why??? cos most of the time u cant unchoose something can you?

too late to even say it's too late, cos by that time, IT IS really too late.

Getting really philosophical huh? yup, maybe, but i think it's worth it once in a while.
so ya, thoughts for the day.
=)

hmmm.. am i reading it right???
it's from this website

too free

TESTS i took today:

Quiz: Are You Bewitching?
Quiz: Laid-Back Are You High Maintenance?
Quiz: Is It Love or Lust?
Quiz: --- i took this test out of sheer boredom.... dont worry... read on
Quiz: The Love Test


RESULTS
Quiz: Are You Bewitching?
Sense of Humor

So maybe you can't pull a rabbit out of your hat.
It doesn't matter much since you never fail to make people laugh.
That's right, you've got a fun personality and quick wit that makes you nothing less than magical.
It's no joke when we say that your funny bone is your most beguiling feature.
But that's not to say that you don't have other alluring assets, too.
You're a sweetheart who's always thinking about others, and your sense of humor
in handling everything makes you stand out. So keep crafting clever remarks, witty comebacks, and silly stories. You're sure to attract many adoring fans and lots of laughs!

Quiz: Laid-Back Are You High Maintenance?
Laid-Back

You definitely care about how you present yourself, but probably not enough to let your appearance dictate what you do, where you go, and who you spend time with. Sure, you take pride in your appearance, but you know that some things are more important than looks. That's a great attitude — it looks like you've achieved a very healthy balance between narcissism and neglect.

Quiz: Is It Love or Lust?
Long-Term Love

Pass the bouquet of roses and the book of Shakespeare's sonnets — you're head over heels in love! You're on the road to finding your soul mate; folks who merely get your nether regions in a tizzy need not apply. Physical passion has its place, of course, and you wouldn't want to go without it. But you go into relationships with one goal in mind: true love. And, from the looks of your answers, you seem to have found the deep connection you're looking for.
It sounds like your sweetie could be "the one" (or, if not, at least one of "the ones").
The two of you share a lot more than "Wham, bam, thank you, Ma'am" — which means you just
might have a future together. As long as you've got a little lust mixed in with the love
(c'mon, it is nice to feel that flutter when your honey is near, isn't it?), that's great news.
Congratulations, and don't forget to send us a wedding invitation.

Quiz: Is It Time to Break Up?
Doomed meter LOW

Do other people say your relationship makes them feel sick?
Ignore them — they're not trying to drop a hint, they're just jealous.
And we don't blame them — it looks like your relationship is perfect.
So why are you wasting your time taking this test, anyway?
You should be with your boyfriend, taking advantage of the passion that's still in full-force.
On a more serious note, the respect and admiration the two of you have for each other makes your relationship a rare find. Not only do you feel a strong romantic connection,
but you're also extremely close friends — a truly wonderful combination. Please accept our sincere congratulations, and go enjoy the love you've found!


Quiz: The Love Test
Romantic Middle

Okay, so you're not a die-hard romantic who carelessly tosses around loving words, hopeful promises, and doting acts, but you do a pretty great job of expressing your loving feelings. Couplehood suits you to a T, and you like coming up with new, creative, non-mushy ways of showing your sweetie how you feel. You know very well that there are other ways to show love, respect, and admiration besides all that flowery mumbo-jumbo. Basically, you're passionately romantic without being excessively sentimental — practical, but also sweet and sensitive. Because no matter what, it's very important to you that your partner understands
how much you care about him — you love how close you feel to him when you tell and show him what's in your heart.

u gotta be kidding

Sponge Bob Square Pants?!

> You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic--how classic-- person that everyone loves. You are the best friend
that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause
harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life
is a journey, it' s funny [laughing gas canister?] and calm for the most part

Stay away from
> traitors and jealous people and you will be stress free. i agree with this. LIKE DUH.

u gotta be just kidding. i thought i would be garfield. lol
i dont think so anyway. I'd rather be the POLAR BEAR!
come on. AND yes. i want to break free........ free from my exams and all the stresss... how the heck can u explain mathematics, not to mention statistics? esp when its done by a freaking software?

THANKS!!!!

OH YES!!!!

how could i forget this...dearie

THANKS for the idea!!!!!!!!
hope u are doing good....

it slapped me today

presenting our mock advertisement for a school project.the collaboration of two minds... one extremely overworked and hyped up and the other painful, exhausted, plain tired, and still in game gear. i have lost it. the magic of being able to speak.
it almost always happens when presenting with jon. No idea why. maybe he's 'taking' it away from me. he's leaving me bloated with laughing gas. too much jon, too much. i know u love laughing gas, but i have too much. that sorta explains the red ears. well, at least i manage to control the amount of laughing for today. PHEW. and i must say that jon is really good at presenting. Great working with you on the project. :)

SUDDENLY, i got slapped. figuratively. again. many times this year. i guess it's the reflections and quiet times i have been taking.. all the alone times spent. Sometimes i wonder, how did all my friends tolerate me. i guess i was sorta a maniac. ya. u read right. MANIAC.

STUFFF-----inspired by mgm403

yes. u must be thinking i'm too free
no, i'm not. i'm just stoning+typing random stuff

yes STUFF.. quoting prof ana valenzuela, it's the most beautiful word... haha
i love the word cos it describes everything. hahha
imagine i was so happy when i read about the warehouse sale. until i boarded the bus and i had to float back down to reality that i cant partake in the usual digging for beautiful cheap clothes.

u hear the cat fights??? meooowww
i hate that feeling. hate it when everyone is happily digging for their desired 'gold' piece and i'm back home, mugging for my projects, papers and what nots. hahha. oh well, it's coming to an end very soon.

And oh ya, I WENT for a JOG! yes..... happy. but also not happy. cos i didnt do interval sprinting. mainly cos i waited for a full 2hours after dinner, stretching while watching la femme. the latest channel 8 show that i am suddenly loyal to. haha........yup, havent been sitting in front of the box for ages. lol. wonder what baristas do. maybe i should go and try my luck for now.

okie. and i should relax. breathe right and be happy.
yupperz.. thanks da jie da, pearlene for the sound advice. love ya to bits.
and i must have a WII tennis match with lorraine. i'm really looking forward to it.

totally outta the BLUE.

Friday the 13th...

WHAT'S UP MAN!!!!
crappy.. hahaha..... oh well.. it's quite okay la
i dont really care about it. hee... :)

inventions. and . the. brain

SOME ONE PLEASE, INVENT A DEVICE THAT ALLOWS THE BRAIN TO BE IN A STEADY STATE ie NO WANDERING THOUGHTS = NO THINKING TOO MUCH.

i wish that i can stop thinking for a while. there's like so much stuff in my brain i think it should explode, but it doesnt. Damn. cant it just explode?? yeah i know, i'm cursing myself to have a stroke, wahaha. stupid right. oh well. i guess it's just that irritating time of the period, where we girls get unstable and everything
darn it la
crappy like whatever and anything--the drink name. heehee

coding? must be the project

a2e3gi3+lnrsvw

This post is written after an episode of the chinese drama serial i watched. I think i see myself in some of the characters and quite amazingly, i'm surprised that i have actually changed. I no longer take things for granted and i know it. In my heart i can say that i've learnt to treasure each and every second of every single day. to all who contributed to my growth, both good and bad, thanks.

and to that special someone, u know it in your heart that i will always treasure the beautiful moments i have shared, moments we are sharing, and will share with you.

stars N gripes

i hate pimples!!!!
grr.. and no thanks to my itchy fingers, there's a scar on my face now.

this is good!!!
.thick pumpkin and leek gravy with big shell pasta and thick creamy mushroom soup.

about the tests....
yes, i took them again, and i got the same answers!!!
no need for screenshots. lol
for both. saving space. had a great time today, although i woke up with aches due to the run i went for yesterday. (:
well.. continued with knitting my shawl, and experimented with different patterns.
will definitely take a pic when it's done.

the bleah post---on february 17,2007
i realised that it's actually really true. okay, not all, but for the most part. it's kinda scary and creepy at the same time. BUT i cant help wondering. this test was taken a year ago. and it's like as if it sort of predicted the future.. maybe the machine is psychic?
i'll try it again, and post the results.

the 'have u found mr right?' test....on february 17,2007

Valerie, you've found Mr. Right because You Put Each Other First

You know it's the real deal when you stop thinking just about what you want and start thinking about what he wants, too. After all, a relationship is about two people coming together. And the way you and your guy put each other's needs on an equal level means you're both ready for something more.

That's not to say that you aren't a strong woman with your own ideas about the way things ought to be because you are, and you don't take marriage lightly either. It's just that you've found a great guy who'll always have your back, even if it's his dear, sweet mom you're debating. And nothing's more romantic than that.

and the 'what kind of girlfriend are you?' test---on february 17,2007

Valerie, you're a Steady Supporter

Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.

For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

been reading through the previous entries, and i realised that i can really write a whole paragraph if i wanna. Maybe i'm not having the writer's mood or pen or whatever they'll call it.
went for a session of interval running the moment i got up, BUT, what seemed like one hour was only 15 min!!! and i felt like i was burning. the weather didnt help much either.
packed my wardrobe, gotta say thanks to lorraine for her inspiring the color coding organising.
i had a peaceful sleep for a first time, since all the dreams and maybe nightmares. And of course, i'd love to have a good soak. for now i'll make do with the shower. ( :

okie.
i just changed the layout again.
i found this rather unique and classic, so yep.
but let me know if the previous one was better..
yes, this is the screenshot. leave a tag so i know if this is more user-friendly...
eg, less scrolling, and all that.

went out today, after a weird dream/nightmare... wonder what is on my mind..
is it reality? still dreaming???
an outing with friends normally helps me to bring me back to earth.

i feel lost. very lost. i wish that time would slow down, so i can enjoy the days, it's slowly getting faster. ironic, i know. do i do this, or do that??? so many decisions to make. back then it was so much easier, admittedly so, cos there were no big decisions to make.
will i get the dream job i wish for, the life i dream of having???

they say that if u dont try, u'll never know. but there's also the fear.
yeah.. i guess it's a risk we all have to take.

just came back from this indian restaurant, somewhere in greendale avenue, it's called CHAT MASALA TOO, had a big dinner. the atmosphere was lovely, suddenly made me wanna paint my room. had the north indian briyani, they called it larif rice, with chicken korma, or some thing.. it's this creamy chicken curry stew, and cos the servings were rather large, we took a little of everyone's.
mum had yogurt chilli fish, dad had chicken masala, bro i think ordered mutton briyani, while his friend had seafood curry. the appetitzers---pappodom?--not sure of the spelling, was cone shaped, and rather spicy..
inspiration!!! i'll try buying the frozen ones, twist it, then throw it in the oil.. see if i get it right.. lol
yep. and i managed to find the large shells as well as the japanese curry!!!! at cold storage jelita. it was an eventful saturday, in all.... what started out as plain boring actually became fun. cool....

oh my
i'm so happy that the first paper is OVER!!!

and i'm rather glad that i came out quite happy.. (:
arh well. time for some relaxation before

HITTING THE BOOKS again....

happy!!!!

ravings past midnight?

This post is for you,

I'm happy that i made a bit of a difference to your life. it may be small, but i certainly glad that this difference made it memorable.

I'm glad even though u sort of predicted the outcome, you nevertheless felt the minute difference.
Hope you will enjoy your supper, like u normally do, but with more gusto this time ya?

Thanks to all who helped make this small difference, u lighted up an otherwise blue and cloudy night.

IMPORTANT

hmmm... was surfing the net then came across this post
apparently this happened late last year
...this poor girl got raped and now has aids... her story can be found here...
just scroll all the way down..

PLEASE BE AWARE…. IMPORTANT ….!! tis is REAL!!!!!

hmm... had a long long night.

Been quite a while since i've visited lau pa sat, the food and all really brings back childhood memories.
Had a mini gathering before a seminar, and a BIG supper... to me it was BIG. never ate so much after dinner!!! the LFI seminar reminded me of a campfire, maybe even a sporting event.
satay, carrot cake, fried kway teow, fried dumplings, and taiwanese bubble tea.... everyone ate a bit.

accompanied the group to partyworld at orchard, and had probably 2 hours of singing going on. There was a mixture of chinese and english songs, and i sang along most of the time......

Evidence that my brain is in a wreck!

thE
eXact
Accurate
Minute
Information
Not
Allowed
To be
Inaccurate
Only
Nasty


what do u get??--------------yeah!! EXAMINATION!!!

OH YES!!

I need full marks for ALL my papers!!!!


please please please.........

esp law
and production and operations mgmt.... grrrr...

omg.. my brain is really wrecked. Damn. forgot so many things!!!

my exams are nearing and i need my memory!!!!
Crappy or what?


well.. tried some artistic skills today.. for my project....
the resulting image looks good.... so far






editing thanks to the GIMP software.
heehee
(:

going crazy soon,

comtemplating windsurfing and wakeboarding again.... missing windsurfing, and wanna try out wakeboarding.... but, should i??? hai

decisions.... kinda brain dead now, and my desk is super untidy... all the papers....

bleah..... it's been a long time...havent been blogging at all.

no particular interesting topics, so far...
Oh yeah, a late but still valid greeting,~come on it's still april!~
HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!
well.... i guess there are some everyday, those itsy bitsy unimportant ones.
hmmm... had a pageant audition for ms lfi, *visit www.lfi.com.sg for more info*
there were so many girls, all so slim... and they all kinda so called knew the art of posing, ----hmmm valuable lessons to be learnt from cam-whoring---- hahha....

upgraded RAM at challenger, ----grrr so so so got cheated ):----

well... there's always the happy part. the service was good. at least i thought so.
went to vivocity, food republic for dinner last night, it was rather packed.

candy empire has THE ^nougats^..... and many other wonder^sweets
hmmmm. chocolate never looked so tempting anywhere else, only in candy empire.

okie. this is an update, posted for the week of 17 march to 23 march.

yep. it's a post that i think is quite short, so i decided to merge them all.
here goes..

17 march...
nothing much happened today, just that i feel really groggy. probably due to that time of the month.. grrr..

18march...
well.. apparently i won some lucky draw thingy that let me go to california fitness as a guest, to try out their gym. but i wasnt very productive. guessing it's cos i'm not a fitness junkie.

19march...
hmm... had a great time talking and laughing with lorraine, it was really fun. girl power!!! (:

20march...
one word. exam.

21march...
it's a public holiday!!! good friday. went to changi airport, terminal 3, it's really huge, but very noisy. not something i expected from an airport. too much shopping happening.
I also passed by IKEA earlier on, happened to see johnson while eating. Small small world.

22march...
today... had this audition at LFI, not very interesting, kinda moody so i'm thinking i screwed it up. haha. felt really weird.

23march...
haircut!!!!! with a special someone, his identity will be kept secret, at his request.

wow, it's 2008.. so fast huh.... happy new year ..

just came back from a cousin's wedding dinner, was really beautiful, and his brother's wife just gave birth to a beautiful baby girl!

Gwendolynn, welcome to the world!

gee, time is really flies.

sometimes i think i'm quite closed to what's going on around me.. maybe that explains the BLURness.. heez. Somehow, another part of me is thankful that i'm blur, cos at times it's better to not know stuff. IGNORANCE is BLISS... oh well, i just wanna sleep already.

ermm... i'm back
from exams and stuff.. haha
I fed my goldfishes today----kinda treated them----their favourite food... it's rare that they actually get so much to eat. haha, luckily they ate all the moment they (saw)sensed it was there, otherwise, the filter would be super dirty...

and well, i seem to be going into a holiday mood. Dunno why and my biological clock is kinda off or something. I guess i need to reset it. haa

arh, yes, this lil bit : BEAUTY BLACK BOOK where are u? anyone seen it, please let me know..


and yes, i wanna achieve my goal for my exams.. hopefully it will turn out well..

BUSY CHRISTMAS

yAy... I bought the laptop skin called BUSY CHRISTMAS....
It's rather unique, don't u think??!!! i meant the name. ya, cos u cant see it.
I wanna stick it on my laptop soon....and yea, I gotta go study my econs.. test or mid terms this friday! grrrr.....

checK out more designs here:

http://thelaptopskin.wordpress.com

the skins are HOT, so HURRY!!!!!

yesterday was charmaine's birthday party..

at her place in Regentville... was rather early, although i thought i would be late... haha...
caught part of Resident Evil : Extinction and I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry, both shows were interesting, although the former was confusing. maybe it's cos i didnt caught the previous three...

There was supposed to be more partying at Ministry Of Sound, but i didnt go for it. I guess i just didnt wanna go in and go out, plus I'm not a real chiong type.. Went home to sleep. BeAutY slEEp hahah. Slept till like noon..

Have a church event later on from 2-4pm, so I'm rushing this blog post. It's some launch party, meet and greet kinda thingy with games and all, so ya... gotta go, already late for it.

Eve's birthday party..
at costa sands pasir ris chalet K02...

whoa, my was at K06.
what a coincidence, the atmosphere felt the same. I brought the PinK and SiLveR balloons, and helped out in the decor too... There was BBQ, but i couldnt eat so much, had a sore throat....

it was really fun, had a good time, but sandy and i left early....

this is cute
visit this website for more fun

http://www.visitsingapore.com/projectpostcard/

hmmm.... wow.. imagine.. i spent a rather so called fruitful saturday yesterday!!

had like TWO soft-boiled EGGS two servings of KAYA TOAST and a cup of hot MILO.... for breakfast. Gosh.. it brought back many childhood memories of eating/not eating soft-boiled eggs. haha.. and boy, for the first time, i actually remembered what i learnt for ECONOMICS.. seriously.. i guess that's good. =)

Dinner... was the usuaL, for me, that mee hoon kuay soup... and i was watching the hongkong drama serial ---last episode--- about a guy called chatty doctor. It was a great show, though i missed some of it.
And i had some help in fixing the bike.. for like many hours.. what with the painting, decals, and all.. de-stressing activities till the wee hours. that explains my irregular waking timings these days..

Well, that was saturday.. Sunday... hmmm..

oooooohhhh.. yeah!!!! october, november, december... the year is coming to an end, one more year and i'm graduating.. time really flies
it's time to really go out there and make money... haha

in a way, to grow up as well... =)

had to go for a checkup today..
after that, i was walking about in eastpoint, and i walked into PET SAFARI...
I saw this adorable 2month old shih tzu puppy.. okie, actually it's a pair of shih-tzus, then the female pup. She was licking the glass when she noticed me
haha, it was so adorable, i really just wanted to stand there and keep looking at her. But i dun think i have the resources to take care of her. sadly. =(

hmmm... week 8..
had to make up for MGG.. i guess everyone couldnt recognise me.

Benjamin had a real big reaction, what with his 'mouth-dropping stunner' facial expression.
hmm, as for the resumes and all.. i really hope that i will do well for it. This class is much more informative then the one at poly, maybe cos it covered much more. Or it's just the friends that i have for company?? haha. weird how some things are these days...

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

In 1986 (the year you were born) Ronald Reagan is president of the US The US officially observes Martin Luther King Day as a national holiday for the first time The space shuttle Challenger explodes moments after lift off, killing 6 astronauts and a teacher A major nuclear disaster occurs at the Chernobyl nuclear power plant in the Soviet Union Japanese video game maker Nintendo introduces its games to America US warplanes bomb Libyan headquarters in retaliation for terrorist attacks The Soviet Union launches the Mir space station IBM unveils the PC Convertible, the first laptop computer Charlotte Church, The Olsen twins, and Lindsay Lohan are born New York Mets win the World Series Chicago Bears win Superbowl XX Montreal Canadiens win the Stanley Cup Top Gun is the top grossing film "That's What Friends Are For" by Dionne & Friends spends the most time at the top of the US charts ALF, the Oprah Winfrey Show, and Pee-wee's Playhouse premiere i didnt know so many things happened in this year....

You Are Boyish Sexy

You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

what an interesting test.....haha... does that explain the ratio of guy to gal friends??? haha

Thursday....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to

ME

went for salsa lessons....and after that, i was kinda sabo-ed by pearlene... she just suddenly 'hey everyone, today is valerie's birthday..' and as usual my face turned red... superbly red. haahaa.. =>

the birthday girl feels very HAPPY!!

ahhh...
the 'everything happens for a reason' mood
after many days of stoning.. and contemplative silence,
i guess i finally see the light...
all the walls are unnecessary...
BUT, it's also very much a take it or leave it kinda thing...
if u cant stand me for who i am and u cant be bothered to understand me as a friend, just too bad...cos friendship is also about acceptance....

Truth hurts... Reality hurts even more...

gosh..i'm getting jittery about my birthday party.. kinda scary

dunno what's gonna happen on that day..*signs..
oh well... i seriously hope it goes fine..
my diet is getting out of hand too.. with me forgetting to eat and all.. hahah.. what a joke.. i actually forgot to eat.. is it normal??? to forget to eat??

haha....lack of updates... yes i know...
essay.assignment.readings.textbook.
*screams in mock terror*

oh dear!!
have to go now=)

PARTY TIME!!!

now i'm planning a party!

whoopEE...
haha..yup, my 21st bday..
hopefully all goes well on that day
and check this website out
it's so cool

http://disney.go.com/ratatouille

i wish

somehow that he knows this....
why is it so hard?? OR is it meant to be this way? This has got to be like the worse. I've never been through this kinda of emotional turmoil before. Even last time. it wasnt that hard. Questions go unanswered.
----reflections a week later----
...but then again, if it falls apart cos of a small matter.. it goes to show how fragile it all really is, and how much it was treasured. Not gonna let myself be hurt so bad again... And i'm gonna make sure of it.

The Moment You Leave Me

You make me believe
You are the one for me it seems
But now, I've found it hard
The way you treated me, it's mean

Cause time after time i keep changing my mind
And i can't get myself over you

The moment you leave me
The moment you're gone
I don't think that I could last another minute
But when we're together
There's something so strong
And I don't think that we ever find a limit
It's going on

Each time you were down
I helped you on your feet but then
Just as soon as you were ready too
You leave me on my own again

Cause time after time I keep changing my mind
And I can't get myself over

When you lied that you love me
And spoke promises that you couldn't keep
How I tried to believe you
When my tears they just cut so deep
And I can't get myself over you

haiz...
getting the flu... very sick

Friday... ZIJIE's birthday.
Had a great time eating chilli crab, oat prawns, calamari, bean sprouts....cooked by the birthday boy... it was lovely, delicious. haha, guess he enjoyed it too.. the chocolate cake... and all the company.

wheee....... the 4 day break was energising!

Went to BOSSES restaurant at vivocity yesterday for dim sum.. it was great!
And i watched transformers! haha... it's a great show... 5 stars...
Basically, I completed many goals........ yes, one of them was watching transformers.
Arhh well... I grew up with those cartoons... I bet that those who watched the transformers cartoons those days will agree.


BYE!

hmmmm.. it's been a long long time....
tests, and projects, + presentations.. taxing......
finally got a 4day break!!! COOL!! thurs,fri,sat,sun!!!! sadly, how ironic. COOL holidays, but HOT days ahead.
oh well.. we have to start loving MOTHER NATURE b4 EARTH is inhabitable.

So many things have happened... The world is changing at an extremely fast pace. I can only say that I really appreciate all the people around me for tolerating all of my horrible flaws. AND YES ....PERRY.....perry........ beloved dog................ i miss you.......

this has been the funniest ever!!!!
went to catch both shrek 3 as well as pirates 3 and.... wow.. i was laughing for both! even though i had to admit that i was a tad tired in the beginning of pirates.. but i guess the hilarious scenes woke me up! oh well. laughing is good as a wake me up... and yes... i just love both movies.

And...... yes.. u are looking at my ferrari miniature front view!
looks like one of the cars from the movie CARS... the happy face right? heee

Sadly, Perry is no longer here... no more walks and runs..... hopefully he's much happier being back with Nick...

BOO!!

yep.. exams are over...


BUT so are the hols.....

argh..... and i know that some friends of mine in NUS are so happily enjoying themselves with their THREE month break......

THEN again... who cares? if i can survive this and graduate sooner, i'll be out first!!!! yay!
haha.. yep.. guess i'm getting mummy's joker genes... imagine she was joking abt screws and screwdrivers..... GOSH, she's good at all these.. maybe that'a where i learnt to laugh and joke..


And yes.. happy birthday to all MaY babies........

YIPPEE!!

ONE LEFT!!!!

went for a test, and was so blur.. was still clutching the paper when i was walking out, luckily the prof took it from behind.. Phew.. and then i woke up.. how bad can it be.. must be the stupid test
accounting left all the figures and zeros in my mind!! until cant think straight...

haiz... HUGE squid here...

stopped at paya lebar, turned right at the platform, then, 'next stop, aljunied'... thought i was hearing the wrong things.... so... waited... then... 'next stop, kallang' !!! Luckily... I was listening.. otherwise it'll be like a 2hr ride to boon lay and back!

how blur can i get??

http://www.time.com

haiz.... so busy!!!!!!
EXAMS

Sway Lyrics


Ah ooh ah

Do-do-do-do-do
Do-do-do-do-do

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor (be on the floor)
Dear, but my eyes will see only you (see ony you) Only
you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak (I go so weak)

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins (it begins)
Make me thrill as only you know how (you know how)
Sway me smooth ,sway me now (give me more)

Sway me, make me (hey yeah)
Thrill me, hold me
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me (me)

(Hey yeah) Sway me
Sway (sway sway)

Ba-ba-ba-ba-ra-ra
Ba-ba-ra-ra
Ba-ba-ra-ra
Ba-ba-ba-ba-ra-ra
Ba-ba-ra-ra
Ba-ba-ra-ra
Ba-ra-ba-ba-ra

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I go weak (weak )

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how (you know how)
Sway me smooth, sway me now (sway me now)
Make me thrill as only you know how (come sway me)
Sway me smooth, sway me now (Come sway me baby, Come and sway me)
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Sway me
Sway me
Sway me now

surfing the internet......
bored....
discovery

http://men.msn.com/articlees.aspx?cp-documentid=4219204&GT1=9311

albert einstein
yup.. i'm VEry tired, stressed out, etc.........................not to mention roasted as well, and i have to tolerate mum's nagging about how black i look, what fairer is prettier, and all that...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......................
go on, place more dots.. i wont mind....

went out to courts mega store, and boy, was i pissed!
the food was horriBLe.... (okay, gotta say it was not bad) just that the SERVICE SUX! the whole queue was disorderly!! didnt know where to get my food.... and guess what? the utensils looked like they were brought from their neighbour IKEA. and yes i was right.. went to IKEA after lunch and saw the exact same cups, bowls, cutlery and stuff... grrrr.........



HAPPY APRIL'S FOOLs day as well !!!
and yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to keegay!!


oh well.. on a lighter note, bought a purple scented candle that came with a candle dish, from IKEA... looks so nice and pretty....
went to church after that... palm sunday... managed to get a cute baby palm... and a HUGE palm.. haha.. and ya, while walking home i thought of this, something i realised was quite true..

FATE = Forthcoming Angst-filled Torturous Events

i agree with athi's msn nicK:
the one i love is not here with me but the one that loves me has no place in my heart
it really sums up everything..say three quarters of the time..

hiaz...oh well...

movie.....
300....ancient times....
hmm... many thoughts running thru my head...

am i bored or just lethargic?

i feel very sleepy these days... or maybe it's that monthly thingy, making me very moody, a bit crazy, hyper, and etc.. somehow, i was fine the past two months though...
*girLs, u know whad i'm toking abt...-guys wiLL never understanD*
i wonder what's going on.. maybe it's the pressure i put on myself these days.. but, i dun understand.. i dun feel that it's pressure, i always thought it was more of a motivation, to reach MY goal!

so what's UP?? no idea... oh weLL, i had a horribLe lunch (as in the food) today.. the hokkien mee didnt taste as good as i expected... and i met my friend....haha, but overall it was okie....
Lunchtime with mummie somehow always never fails to put a smiLe back on my face..

OKIE

i need to go read my stuff...

A's, here i come.. please dont run from me!

absolut shoWcaSe

these R thE bottLEs .......

i got to see the absolut vodka bottleS
at marina square while walking around yesterday!!!

i think they're reaL cool..
i like the way they're designed.. what with all the frosty kind of surface and words..
makes it look soo exotic

like some hawaiian drink.. =)


AND..

thiS-------->>>>

is

definiTeLy
super dubeR

uLtra-cooL!!!

too bad i couldnt take more and better pics.. cos the spotlights were rather bright...haiz... so nice... i wonder how much one bottle cost.. maybe i can go buy one and keep it as a souvenir.. haha.. ask others to drink it and, me? i'll keep the bottle!!!! hee hee...
yep.. the loGo of absolut vodka!!!

it lookS like it was coloured with CRAYONS!!!!

haha..and i got that BaG from tomatoCAN!!!

and this iS the webbiE.....http://www.tomatocan.com.sg

yay yay... i found out that it's a locaL brand...cooL huh?... the desiGns are not bad, considering the resulting types of bags...SinGaPoRe deSigNeRs!!!!

this is a GREAT pic!!
i love the way it's written....
yep..i took a foto of the post card..
.. haha.. not a reaL pic...

WHAM!

yes... the door sLaMMeD into my facE yet again... figuratively..... why do i always have to do something that makes me get thrown into a minefield of 'what-if's? this is sounding kinda like the marketing 9 steps thingy... what mission, scenario, strategy, tactics, execution, bleah... dun wanna blog about marketing.... oh well.. i guess i can only hope that the resulting effect or impact is a good one, and it wont be a bad move when i reflect on it later on...

yep... and i had a freaky nightmare!!!! about GHOSTS.... yes, ghosts... what seeing ghosts, and the ghosts are not able to walk through doors when they panic and stuff... so scary.....adds on to my already mind-boggling questionnaires on ghosts... hehe... there are so many things about them...

BUT

sometimes it's just better not to know... so ya, this specific questionnaire is kinda like half-completed.

CURIOUSITY KILLS THE CAT!!

well in this case the tiger(me, duh)... haha.. waiting for the application to be downloaded takes a LOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG time!! i guess i can complete all my accounting practices.... (only the practices, not ALL---i'm not an EXPERT at acctg YET... i strive to be) I WANNA GET MY As!!!! yes... i'm on the way there, gonna work my ass off for it.. i know i can do it, i will achieve it. yep.....okie... gonna get back to my accounting assignments and statistics...
excel?? i'm still trying.... the office is so funny la, it can only be activated TWICE??? like harlow????? then if ur computer is down and out more then two times??? what IS gonna happen??? total CRAP. it's not economical!!!!!

alright!!! i got an A on an assignment!!! yippeee...happy... and ya... i must go and run more, or maybe ask darren to teach me basketball.. and ask for the ways that ppl get a foul... so i can guard that basketball player and GET the baLL! maybe i should TRY kai's eviL method....*eViL lauGhteR* and in a foul way!!!! hahaha.. in the mean time, i will try to invent my own score board!! maybe distraction from the target or something else.... lol.. so cool. yepp..and now i really really understand how the REAL bball players feel after a match... esp... all the running and guarding.. gosh..it's like so unpredictable! left, right, front back....jump up...bleah......yea..

yes... before i forget.. i still don't believe einstein wrote/pondered on this:

How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?

unbelieveable right? and i thought einstein was aLL scientific genius stuff.. so he did think too much sometimes... haha... i'm a bad girl. making fun of a genius...

oh ya.. crap is fun sometimes.. esPeciaLLy when u've got nothinG to talk about and think about...like how celestine and i were crapping abt names..and then it was so hilarious, it felt like a workout.. and the customer service thing... haha celestine, maybe u should try something else?? we try to invent our phrases..... ok??? hhahahhah

Remember me this way

Ev'ry now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
But part of you will never, ever go away
Your heart will stay

(Chorus:)
I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more, a part of me
You're ev'rywhere

(Repeat chorus)

(Bridge:)
And I'll be right behind your shoulder, watching you I'll be standing by your side in all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

(Repeat chorus)

This way


just love this song.... one of my favourites.. :)

i dun need a man~

I don't need a man
I don't need a man (Did I complete 'cha? I don't need ya!)
Oh! I don't need a man
I'm over you
I don't need a man (Without you)
I don't need a man (Ohh I'm over you)
I'm over you, yeah!
Oh, I don't need a man


[Chorus]
Cause I'm doin' fine without you!
I don't need a man to make it through
I don't need a-I don't need a man, I don't
Cause I'm doin' fine I feel brand new
I don't need a man to get me through
I don't need a-I don't need a man, I don't

Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go (Let it go!)
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go (No no no no...)
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go (Baby...)
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go (Let it go!)

[Chorus]

You'll know if I'm feelin' you
And I don't have to think it through
The more you try the less I bite

And baby I don't need a hand if it only wants to grab one thing
And without that-no deal
I want a love that's for real
So if you wanna be with me it ain't at all about the bling you're bringin'
You know I've got my own life and I bought everything that's in it

And I'm not afraid to tell you I don't ever wanna leave you confused
'Cause there are some things I won't do
Just give it all up to you
And the way that you stare, don'tcha dare 'cause I'm not about to
I see you lookin' at me like I got somethin' that's for you

So let me break it down- I can get off when you ain't around!
I don't need a ring around my finger, to make me feel complete
I don't need a man to make me feel good, I get off doin' my thing
I don't need a man to make it happen, I get off bein' free
[Chorus]

You'll know if I'm into you
I don't have to think it through
The more you try the less bite and

And I'm not afraid to tell you I don't ever wanna leave you confused
'Cause there are some things I won't do
Just give it all up to you
And the way that you stare, don'tcha dare 'cause I'm not about to
I see you lookin' at me like I got somethin' that's for you

yeah.. u go girl!
oh ya, happy bday charles.

fun?

i still like this pic i took last year.. sceneRy from the office...
even though it looks kinda blank... cos maybe u can see the body of water at the back.. lol

yep.. a stress reliever...

ok! enough of bleah-ing the time away,
back to papers and studying!!!

gosh.. i'm getting bored. very bored. i really have no idea why.. too lazy to even do anything.

i wanna do a lot of things, but it seems so far-fetched some how.. why???

boring.....boring... bored..................

just wanna laugh like forever....

the bleah post

the 'have u found mr right?' test....

Valerie, you've found Mr. Right because You Put Each Other First

You know it's the real deal when you stop thinking just about what you want and start thinking about what he wants, too. After all, a relationship is about two people coming together. And the way you and your guy put each other's needs on an equal level means you're both ready for something more.

That's not to say that you aren't a strong woman with your own ideas about the way things ought to be because you are, and you don't take marriage lightly either. It's just that you've found a great guy who'll always have your back, even if it's his dear, sweet mom you're debating. And nothing's more romantic than that.

and the 'what kind of girlfriend are you?' test

Valerie, you're a Steady Supporter

Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.

For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

tests...haha.. i feel they seem crappy!!!!
my first reaction to the results : OH REALLY??????
but to the computer : thanks for the compliments...
hahaha...

check it out and try them for urself...
www.tickle.com
have a fun time.

it was valentine's day... hmm... spent my time studying for the accounting test..

but i was very pissed... i shaded the right answer but erased it and shaded the WRONG answer.. GRRRR....

darn...........................

ooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! I JUST LOVE THE SPORT.....

cant get it outta my mind.. i love it..... i managed to windsurf for a while, after countless tries at getting the sail up... the feeling was lovely... beautiful... being able to enjoy the wind while on the board... i wanna learn to increase speed, but i have to master the basics first... yeap!!!

haiz.. it'll be a fortnight before going out there again... BUT, then again it's chinese new year!!! festive mood! haha.. ok... back... to.. school

test on the 15th!!!!

windsurfing is FUN!

gosh.. i didnt realise how fun windsurfing was till i went to the windsurfing course this morning. even though i fell into the water countless times, it was, nevertheless, enjoyable. I just cant wait for the next windsurfing lesson!!!!
I guess i'm getting addicted to seasports.

And i went for a chingay rehearsal, but backed out at the last minute, cos i was getting a head from the head dress. i felt really bad, since the guy in charge had already sort of viewed me as competent to join in the dance as a supporting dancer. But oh well.. safety first.

heez...currently i've been in a kinda very reflective mood these past few days, got many things on my mind, and really, i must say that my gd friends, clement and darren, are really really, as funny as i may sound, they're really right about living happily and not thinking so much.. Thanks guys! =) And yes, charles, thanks for reminding me, i'm so gonna have to stop resorting to violence... i need to try to cultivate patience.. even though a few of my friends think i'm rather patient.. i think otherwise.. i need more patience... it's just so weird.. and yep... wanted to post this here.. it's rather beautiful...

moment by moment

Do not look back and ponder over what might have been;

nor be troubled by the year ahead for it has yet to come;
Live today to the fullest and make it beautiful
so that it will be worth remembering

marketing, marketing, marketing...
stats, stats, stats................<<<<<------hey this spells the same forward and backward!!
and aLL aSsiGnMeNtS!!!!!
CRAP...

haiz...

oh yay! managed to share those choc nut cookies with clement after all.. haha....

am so gonna try windsurfing. praying that nothing will happen =)

it's pilinG up!!! NO NO NO...

darn... it shouldnt turn out this way......

baked some cookies, wanted to share them with my classmates and maybe clement, but fainted/threw a fit while getting down the bus.. haiz... must be the stress piling up.. and maybe, maybe, me not taking care of myself well enough. *sigh.. have to start taking good care of myself already.

whoa... school's started, and even though it's just the beginning, it's kinda wearing me down... hmph... i guess i'm still in the holiday mode...

WAKE UP!! *slaps face...

arh... that feels better, a little more awake.. well.. i better start studying..
I DEFINITELY NEED MY As BADLY....

the rainbow

it's been some time....
haha... the rainbow after the storm ??
kinda really describes human emotions... and i guess it really takes a while for us humans to get to the violet part...

my perspective on the colours :

red- could be anger, or any other hyper emotions that gets u ridiculous?
orange- the so called calm, or maybe tidal wave...
yellow- the fading out... or maybe seeing the light.. sunny day again kinda feeling
green- hmm.. most ppl associate this with jealousy. i would say it's the freshness of learning, the opening up of urself again, maybe vulnerability, but with more strength
blue- the blues that faded away comes back once a while
indigo- achieving the real calmness, understanding of the lessons learnt

finally

violet-- a feeling of peace and serenity deep down, that one has and was able to come out better and stronger.


okay, sch has started, i'm in a real dilemma about everything else, but one thing remains clear, that i have to get my distinctions. i wanna do the best i can.