Seriously...
I wonder what is wrong with the people i meet? They seem to be more interested in themselves then others. It's alright to be interested in yourself, but a fine line between conceitedness and self love exists!!! Come on. The world is not just about yourself.
Fight back??? By all means. I dont give a shit. Cos after all you are just defending the person in the mirror.
i hate these people.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
gone
i was in a flight, about to touch down. I hate this part of the flight. Ever since i stopped travelling for 11 or 12 years, i’ve been experiencing these symptoms.
I look out of my cosy window seat, and gasped. the sky was rosy, and bathed in the after sunrise glow. I had never had the opportunity to witness such a beautiful sunset. but in a few seconds, all i saw was the nearing countryside. The airport was cramped with tourists everywhere. I was upset, that i rejected the company of friends, glad that i was alone. Some how. Confused.
So this is what country living felt like. Being alone, i was taking my time to enjoy the lush hills and scenic mountains. Suddenly, i heard a familiar voice calling out to me. It was him. My heart did a little flutter. I turned, only to be greeted by the chirping of the birds. I was still in denial. why? why? why?
Why did events take such a turn?
He was always there for me, every single time. Even when he was absorbed in his gaming sessions, he never forgot to call. Now, I wish I had been more attentive, more careful with my words, more observant.
He cared for me like no other. He helped me through my sorrows, even sacrificing his love for my happiness. Eventually, he won me over. Still i was doubtful. I doubted him. He always told me to live for the moment, enjoy each and everyday, not to worry and fret over nothing. I listened, but I doubted.
I should have listened with all my heart. now that he’s gone, he would have asked for the same, for me to be happy. All he wanted was me to be happy. His smile, his hug, and his presence. Now, there’s only memories.
We had so many good times together…
In my wallet, he smiles back at me from a time long past. Our first dinner date, where he tried to be friendly.
I still remember how i gave him a hard time, but softened after dinner. I let out a soft giggle. Cooking meals for each other, having sleepovers, movie marathons, etc..
Memories came flooding back and so did my tears.
One of the most cherished memory was the beach. He brought me to a park, asking me to accompany him on a night blading session. I agreed, and let him take the lead. He led me to a place, and since I had night blindness, he carried me over to a patch. Once I was on the grass, he whipped out his package, comprising some fruits and snacks. He told me that we would be camping here for the night. I didnt quite believe him, as he was a homely guy who would never camp out unless he had too.
‘Hey sleepy head, gd morning!!!’ I yawned, only to be greeted by the vast beauty of the sunrise.
We were planning so many things to do together. We had finally accomplished our dream of a mini bakery bar, and it was slowly but surely gaining popularity.
I never knew that our time together would be cut short. If i could, I would turn back time. hold him once more, tell him that i will not doubt him anymore.
I was hit, in the shoulder. An apple dropped on me. I had forgotten that I was under a huge apple tree. I had come to the countryside in the hope of taking a break, after a month of his passing. I needed to recover, but i couldnt. he was a part of me and i still could not accept the fact.
I still remember the day.
I had just finished cooking breakfast, and had set the table, when i heard a loud thud. I turned to see him behind me, on the floor. He looked at me, and said, ‘i love you’. I was in shock, he was healthy. I tried to get him to look at me, but he was gone. Gone. Right before my very eyes. the ambulance came, and the doctor said something… I couldnt hear him… didnt want to hear him…
I didnt know what to do. All i knew was that my love was taken from me.
I decided it was time to move on. I couldnt be stuck in a rut. He wouldnt want that.
‘Jane, remember I’ll always be with you.’ This was what he had told me a few years back, when I was trying to make a tough decision, on whether to travel on business.
It was a whisper, but i heard it clearly. ‘Tory, is that you???’ I asked silently. Suddenly, another apple dropped in my hand. I heard him in my head. Motivated by his words, I managed to get a bus down to the motel. I decided to enjoy myself. This is going to work. I will be happy again, for Tory.Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Kawaii Tokyo UPDATE
Yea!! i managed to convince my mum to get the Cupid's Arrow spot stick.
So far, I can see the spots getting lighter!!! So cool!!
As for myself, I bought the Brightening Water. I havent opened it yet though. Have to clear my beauty stash first!! too much cosmetics already!!!
hahha... okok, stay tuned for more posts!!
So far, I can see the spots getting lighter!!! So cool!!
As for myself, I bought the Brightening Water. I havent opened it yet though. Have to clear my beauty stash first!! too much cosmetics already!!!
hahha... okok, stay tuned for more posts!!
Earth Interview
Me: Good morning, world. How are u doing? It's been awhile.
World/Earth: Hi there!! I'm getting really pissed. Not doing good. U people don't cherish what you have till it's gone, huh??
Me: Sorry, you lost me there for a while. Why are you so pissed? I thought you were doing great.
Earth: GREAT?? Wake up and smell the forest. Look, kiddo. your planet Earth here, is gonna to explode sooner or later. But your generation is not helping. They should have realised long ago that changing habits when global warming has started will NOT alleviate my problems. I have a BIG hole at the arctic, if you don't already know. Your lovely polar bears are suffering, killing each other to survive....*pauses* I'd like to wonder how humans would survive if there were no more resources for him. Perhaps, that day is DOOMSDAY.
Me: You mean that WE humans should have heeded the scientists when they predicted the global warming signs and such?? so I wont get to see glaciers, or even icy peaks of mountains soon?
Earth: Yup. :) Pretty much. Glaciers, hmm, they are melting away.... like the ice shelves. Icy peaks, hmmm, good question. I guess if the icy peaks really disappear, then I've gotta say, good luck, the time is ending.
Me: Ok, all this talk is scaring me. Some happier news?
Earth: Happier news? Well, nothing much. The green effort is not even making any impact yet. So what good news do you want? Maybe, you should go and play the Michael Jackson song, EARTH SONG. it was written for me, I love that guy. The music video shows everything that is happening right now. Yup. Happier, hmmm... you bothered to find out what's wrong. But I'd be happier, if you helped in your own way.
Some facts, plastic water bottles are causing me a helluva sore throat, with all that carbon dioxide and other gases. Please. Do something about it. AND more TREES. I love trees. They're like my lungs.
Me: Hmmm... I'd spread the word. Hope that helps, and Please, Earth, let me see the glaciers, polar bears, penguins and all.
Earth: Then go do your part. :)
World/Earth: Hi there!! I'm getting really pissed. Not doing good. U people don't cherish what you have till it's gone, huh??
Me: Sorry, you lost me there for a while. Why are you so pissed? I thought you were doing great.
Earth: GREAT?? Wake up and smell the forest. Look, kiddo. your planet Earth here, is gonna to explode sooner or later. But your generation is not helping. They should have realised long ago that changing habits when global warming has started will NOT alleviate my problems. I have a BIG hole at the arctic, if you don't already know. Your lovely polar bears are suffering, killing each other to survive....*pauses* I'd like to wonder how humans would survive if there were no more resources for him. Perhaps, that day is DOOMSDAY.
Me: You mean that WE humans should have heeded the scientists when they predicted the global warming signs and such?? so I wont get to see glaciers, or even icy peaks of mountains soon?
Earth: Yup. :) Pretty much. Glaciers, hmm, they are melting away.... like the ice shelves. Icy peaks, hmmm, good question. I guess if the icy peaks really disappear, then I've gotta say, good luck, the time is ending.
Me: Ok, all this talk is scaring me. Some happier news?
Earth: Happier news? Well, nothing much. The green effort is not even making any impact yet. So what good news do you want? Maybe, you should go and play the Michael Jackson song, EARTH SONG. it was written for me, I love that guy. The music video shows everything that is happening right now. Yup. Happier, hmmm... you bothered to find out what's wrong. But I'd be happier, if you helped in your own way.
Some facts, plastic water bottles are causing me a helluva sore throat, with all that carbon dioxide and other gases. Please. Do something about it. AND more TREES. I love trees. They're like my lungs.
Me: Hmmm... I'd spread the word. Hope that helps, and Please, Earth, let me see the glaciers, polar bears, penguins and all.
Earth: Then go do your part. :)
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Dolls, and the growing obsession with beauty
First there was Barbie.
Then there was Blythe.
But pardon me, this is only my opinion. you are entitled to your personal opinion.
yes, i was part of the barbie phase. Hence my Barbie-biased defence is that,
1. Barbie looks perfectly like a doll.
2. Barbie, NEVER, and i repeat, NEVER, got a chance to scare the **** outta me.
3. Barbie is fun. Sweet innocent fun.
4. Barbie has her own stylist.-me
yes, i could go on and on. The other doll lovers will be mumbling 'come on, (respective doll) is exactly like the above!!!'
okay, fair enough.
But, to me, Blythe is
1.scary.
2.just disproportionate.
3.too weird.
4.having too many contacts change.
5.severely emaciated.
6.totally not like a doll.
Why? I grew up in a time where dolls were supposedly 'playfriends' of we young girls. some(doll) that we look forward to playing with each day.
And also, we took a revelation in their clothes. We mimic their fashion sense, thus we grow. Beauty comes into the picture.
But as time passes and we girls passed the stage of dolls, we formulate our equivalent fashion sense. We start observing others.
But (pardon me, this is only my opinion. you are entitled to your personal opinion) has it gone too far in a way? Having read about how some females actually speak to their dolls, and bring them on shopping sprees, i wonder how the next generation will be like.
It's almost like asking, since when did the mobile telephone become indispensable?
Blythe, was a model for photography. yes, she, as a doll, is photogenic.
Because you get to shoot her at different angles and countless clothes changes after, she keeps mum. Perfect model.
I saw some Blythe fashion shoots, and, yes, she looks good.
Photos:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/glamourfae/1636500481/
http://www.blythedoll.com/eng/news/080711_PCYA_sia.jpg
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryuphotostudio/3198642920/
this is a website that is a celebration of style, and beauty:-http://www.trustyourstyle.com/2006/07/blythe-life-i-just-received-these.html
Great photos on the Blythe website too.
But then again.
Did anyone notice that the female, not to mention human, anatomy is NOT big head, small body.
Even at a toy shop, she scares me away with those huge eyes.
It's funny if you think about it. why would a doll scare you away???
I am not a Blythe fan, though i do appreciate the photos/posters.
Just one grouch.
It creeps me out. Pardon my imagination, i imagine a lady, on a shopping trip, asking her blythe,
'Blythe, dear, do you perfer royal purple or teal?'
ok, back to my farmville and restaurant city. lolx
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Then there was Blythe.
But pardon me, this is only my opinion. you are entitled to your personal opinion.
yes, i was part of the barbie phase. Hence my Barbie-biased defence is that,
1. Barbie looks perfectly like a doll.
2. Barbie, NEVER, and i repeat, NEVER, got a chance to scare the **** outta me.
3. Barbie is fun. Sweet innocent fun.
4. Barbie has her own stylist.-me
yes, i could go on and on. The other doll lovers will be mumbling 'come on, (respective doll) is exactly like the above!!!'
okay, fair enough.
But, to me, Blythe is
1.scary.
2.just disproportionate.
3.too weird.
4.having too many contacts change.
5.severely emaciated.
6.totally not like a doll.
Why? I grew up in a time where dolls were supposedly 'playfriends' of we young girls. some(doll) that we look forward to playing with each day.
And also, we took a revelation in their clothes. We mimic their fashion sense, thus we grow. Beauty comes into the picture.
But as time passes and we girls passed the stage of dolls, we formulate our equivalent fashion sense. We start observing others.
But (pardon me, this is only my opinion. you are entitled to your personal opinion) has it gone too far in a way? Having read about how some females actually speak to their dolls, and bring them on shopping sprees, i wonder how the next generation will be like.
It's almost like asking, since when did the mobile telephone become indispensable?
Blythe, was a model for photography. yes, she, as a doll, is photogenic.
Because you get to shoot her at different angles and countless clothes changes after, she keeps mum. Perfect model.
I saw some Blythe fashion shoots, and, yes, she looks good.
Photos:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/glamourfae/1636500481/
http://www.blythedoll.com/eng/news/080711_PCYA_sia.jpg
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryuphotostudio/3198642920/
this is a website that is a celebration of style, and beauty:-http://www.trustyourstyle.com/2006/07/blythe-life-i-just-received-these.html
Great photos on the Blythe website too.
But then again.
Did anyone notice that the female, not to mention human, anatomy is NOT big head, small body.
Even at a toy shop, she scares me away with those huge eyes.
It's funny if you think about it. why would a doll scare you away???
I am not a Blythe fan, though i do appreciate the photos/posters.
Just one grouch.
It creeps me out. Pardon my imagination, i imagine a lady, on a shopping trip, asking her blythe,
'Blythe, dear, do you perfer royal purple or teal?'
ok, back to my farmville and restaurant city. lolx
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Transformers
I would very much like to write a review on transformers: revenge of the fallen, but I dont want my review to be a spoiler.
Thus, a snap-summary.
Overall, it's a adrenaline packed movie, and I love how the director actually deals with the family bonds, loyalty, etc..
Plus, the cast gives a solid performance. It's a rare opportunity that all cast members actually support each other to come up with a stunning performance.
Just maybe, maybe, Bumblebee, was a little too emo for a bot. but, what can i say, bot and boy were so close.
the effects were great, though the symbols were a bit too historical for me.
Thus, a snap-summary.
Overall, it's a adrenaline packed movie, and I love how the director actually deals with the family bonds, loyalty, etc..
Plus, the cast gives a solid performance. It's a rare opportunity that all cast members actually support each other to come up with a stunning performance.
Just maybe, maybe, Bumblebee, was a little too emo for a bot. but, what can i say, bot and boy were so close.
the effects were great, though the symbols were a bit too historical for me.
Re: Michael Jackson
MJ, it's just you.
Right now, my thoughts are mostly on the late michael jackson, ---i hate addressing him this way--- and his tribute.
It was touching, and soulful. it ate to the core of my person.
when the lady from the house of state, i think it was Ms. Jackson-Lee, presented MJ with Resolution 600, I was close to breaking down. I was thrilled to know that MJ had contributed so much of his professional life to the world, but saddened by the fact that he will never know it.
However, MJ wouldnt have minded. He gave and gave without the need for anything back.
While researching on Resolution 600, i was in awe of the impact that MJ made in these people's lifes. MJ truly made the world a better place.
Brooke Shields' eulogy was equally touching, and personal. In the very moment that she took to the rostrum, she shook her head to request that the audience not clap for her. I was moved by this very simple act, it shows her character, it shows she knew that MJ was the one who was more deserving.
Add to the fact that MJ had a favourite song, which told of happiness, which told of a universal truth: Smile, and the world smiles with you.
I will always remember Michael Jackson, not for all the tabloids, but for his songs, and his smile. And i hope you do too.
Right now, my thoughts are mostly on the late michael jackson, ---i hate addressing him this way--- and his tribute.
It was touching, and soulful. it ate to the core of my person.
when the lady from the house of state, i think it was Ms. Jackson-Lee, presented MJ with Resolution 600, I was close to breaking down. I was thrilled to know that MJ had contributed so much of his professional life to the world, but saddened by the fact that he will never know it.
However, MJ wouldnt have minded. He gave and gave without the need for anything back.
While researching on Resolution 600, i was in awe of the impact that MJ made in these people's lifes. MJ truly made the world a better place.
Brooke Shields' eulogy was equally touching, and personal. In the very moment that she took to the rostrum, she shook her head to request that the audience not clap for her. I was moved by this very simple act, it shows her character, it shows she knew that MJ was the one who was more deserving.
Add to the fact that MJ had a favourite song, which told of happiness, which told of a universal truth: Smile, and the world smiles with you.
I will always remember Michael Jackson, not for all the tabloids, but for his songs, and his smile. And i hope you do too.
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Random...
ello..
i'm back.
Well, back from a stuffed friday, from a tweeny part of hokkaido fair at Tampines Mall and watching transformers.
Stuffed? you ask...
Looking around, and walking around the crowded mini booths, we saw the hairy crab, most prob a huge yummy one, costly $400+ (yeah, SGD. so guess in YEN it's much higher). a few more secs of walking and we pass by a tasty smelling crispy flakey crunchy CROQUETTE stall.
There goes the 5...Darling comes out with a POTATO croquette, and a PUMPKIN croquette.
THEN... the ramen stall. Supposedly, we were huge fans, of RAMEN. but for some reason, we didnt try to queue, just yet.
So on we went, till we reached the front, with this huge poster of the MANJU CAKE.
And me, being the jap flour cake person that i am, just had to queue up to buy it.
precious 15min just for 4 manju cake----2 red bean and 2 custard.
okay, so after TRANSFORMERS: revenge of the fallen, we were back there. AGAIN.
this time at the RAMEN stall, and we couldnt decide.
A bowl costs 16SGD.
YES/ NO/YES/NO....
in the end, i gave up.
rather save the 16, and eat something else.
okay, my stomach is growling. i wonder why.
i'm back.
Well, back from a stuffed friday, from a tweeny part of hokkaido fair at Tampines Mall and watching transformers.
Stuffed? you ask...
Looking around, and walking around the crowded mini booths, we saw the hairy crab, most prob a huge yummy one, costly $400+ (yeah, SGD. so guess in YEN it's much higher). a few more secs of walking and we pass by a tasty smelling crispy flakey crunchy CROQUETTE stall.
There goes the 5...Darling comes out with a POTATO croquette, and a PUMPKIN croquette.
THEN... the ramen stall. Supposedly, we were huge fans, of RAMEN. but for some reason, we didnt try to queue, just yet.
So on we went, till we reached the front, with this huge poster of the MANJU CAKE.
And me, being the jap flour cake person that i am, just had to queue up to buy it.
precious 15min just for 4 manju cake----2 red bean and 2 custard.
okay, so after TRANSFORMERS: revenge of the fallen, we were back there. AGAIN.
this time at the RAMEN stall, and we couldnt decide.
A bowl costs 16SGD.
YES/ NO/YES/NO....
in the end, i gave up.
rather save the 16, and eat something else.
okay, my stomach is growling. i wonder why.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Michael Jackson.....
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