gone

i was in a flight, about to touch down. I hate this part of the flight. Ever since i stopped travelling for 11 or 12 years, i’ve been experiencing these symptoms.

I look out of my cosy window seat, and gasped. the sky was rosy, and bathed in the after sunrise glow. I had never had the opportunity to witness such a beautiful sunset. but in a few seconds, all i saw was the nearing countryside. The airport was cramped with tourists everywhere. I was upset, that i rejected the company of friends, glad that i was alone. Some how. Confused.

So this is what country living felt like. Being alone, i was taking my time to enjoy the lush hills and scenic mountains. Suddenly, i heard a familiar voice calling out to me. It was him. My heart did a little flutter. I turned, only to be greeted by the chirping of the birds. I was still in denial. why? why? why?

Why did events take such a turn?
He was always there for me, every single time. Even when he was absorbed in his gaming sessions, he never forgot to call. Now, I wish I had been more attentive, more careful with my words, more observant.

He cared for me like no other. He helped me through my sorrows, even sacrificing his love for my happiness. Eventually, he won me over. Still i was doubtful. I doubted him. He always told me to live for the moment, enjoy each and everyday, not to worry and fret over nothing. I listened, but I doubted.

I should have listened with all my heart. now that he’s gone, he would have asked for the same, for me to be happy. All he wanted was me to be happy. His smile, his hug, and his presence. Now, there’s only memories.

We had so many good times together…

In my wallet, he smiles back at me from a time long past. Our first dinner date, where he tried to be friendly.
I still remember how i gave him a hard time, but softened after dinner. I let out a soft giggle. Cooking meals for each other, having sleepovers, movie marathons, etc..

Memories came flooding back and so did my tears.

One of the most cherished memory was the beach. He brought me to a park, asking me to accompany him on a night blading session. I agreed, and let him take the lead. He led me to a place, and since I had night blindness, he carried me over to a patch. Once I was on the grass, he whipped out his package, comprising some fruits and snacks. He told me that we would be camping here for the night. I didnt quite believe him, as he was a homely guy who would never camp out unless he had too.

‘Hey sleepy head, gd morning!!!’ I yawned, only to be greeted by the vast beauty of the sunrise.

We were planning so many things to do together. We had finally accomplished our dream of a mini bakery bar, and it was slowly but surely gaining popularity.

I never knew that our time together would be cut short. If i could, I would turn back time. hold him once more, tell him that i will not doubt him anymore.

I was hit, in the shoulder. An apple dropped on me. I had forgotten that I was under a huge apple tree. I had come to the countryside in the hope of taking a break, after a month of his passing. I needed to recover, but i couldnt. he was a part of me and i still could not accept the fact.

I still remember the day.

I had just finished cooking breakfast, and had set the table, when i heard a loud thud. I turned to see him behind me, on the floor. He looked at me, and said, ‘i love you’. I was in shock, he was healthy. I tried to get him to look at me, but he was gone. Gone. Right before my very eyes. the ambulance came, and the doctor said something… I couldnt hear him… didnt want to hear him…

I didnt know what to do. All i knew was that my love was taken from me.

I decided it was time to move on. I couldnt be stuck in a rut. He wouldnt want that.

‘Jane, remember I’ll always be with you.’ This was what he had told me a few years back, when I was trying to make a tough decision, on whether to travel on business.

It was a whisper, but i heard it clearly. ‘Tory, is that you???’ I asked silently. Suddenly, another apple dropped in my hand. I heard him in my head. Motivated by his words, I managed to get a bus down to the motel. I decided to enjoy myself. This is going to work. I will be happy again, for Tory.

Kawaii Tokyo UPDATE

Yea!! i managed to convince my mum to get the Cupid's Arrow spot stick.
So far, I can see the spots getting lighter!!! So cool!!

As for myself, I bought the Brightening Water. I havent opened it yet though. Have to clear my beauty stash first!! too much cosmetics already!!!
hahha... okok, stay tuned for more posts!!

Earth Interview

Me: Good morning, world. How are u doing? It's been awhile.

World/Earth: Hi there!! I'm getting really pissed. Not doing good. U people don't cherish what you have till it's gone, huh??

Me: Sorry, you lost me there for a while. Why are you so pissed? I thought you were doing great.

Earth: GREAT?? Wake up and smell the forest. Look, kiddo. your planet Earth here, is gonna to explode sooner or later. But your generation is not helping. They should have realised long ago that changing habits when global warming has started will NOT alleviate my problems. I have a BIG hole at the arctic, if you don't already know. Your lovely polar bears are suffering, killing each other to survive....*pauses* I'd like to wonder how humans would survive if there were no more resources for him. Perhaps, that day is DOOMSDAY.

Me: You mean that WE humans should have heeded the scientists when they predicted the global warming signs and such?? so I wont get to see glaciers, or even icy peaks of mountains soon?

Earth: Yup. :) Pretty much. Glaciers, hmm, they are melting away.... like the ice shelves. Icy peaks, hmmm, good question. I guess if the icy peaks really disappear, then I've gotta say, good luck, the time is ending.

Me: Ok, all this talk is scaring me. Some happier news?

Earth: Happier news? Well, nothing much. The green effort is not even making any impact yet. So what good news do you want? Maybe, you should go and play the Michael Jackson song, EARTH SONG. it was written for me, I love that guy. The music video shows everything that is happening right now. Yup. Happier, hmmm... you bothered to find out what's wrong. But I'd be happier, if you helped in your own way.
Some facts, plastic water bottles are causing me a helluva sore throat, with all that carbon dioxide and other gases. Please. Do something about it. AND more TREES. I love trees. They're like my lungs.

Me: Hmmm... I'd spread the word. Hope that helps, and Please, Earth, let me see the glaciers, polar bears, penguins and all.

Earth: Then go do your part. :)

Dolls, and the growing obsession with beauty

First there was Barbie.
Then there was Blythe.
But pardon me, this is only my opinion. you are entitled to your personal opinion.

yes, i was part of the barbie phase. Hence my Barbie-biased defence is that,
1. Barbie looks perfectly like a doll.
2. Barbie, NEVER, and i repeat, NEVER, got a chance to scare the **** outta me.
3. Barbie is fun. Sweet innocent fun.
4. Barbie has her own stylist.-me

yes, i could go on and on. The other doll lovers will be mumbling 'come on, (respective doll) is exactly like the above!!!'
okay, fair enough.

But, to me, Blythe is

1.scary.
2.just disproportionate.
3.too weird.
4.having too many contacts change.
5.severely emaciated.
6.totally not like a doll.


Why? I grew up in a time where dolls were supposedly 'playfriends' of we young girls. some(doll) that we look forward to playing with each day.
And also, we took a revelation in their clothes. We mimic their fashion sense, thus we grow. Beauty comes into the picture.
But as time passes and we girls passed the stage of dolls, we formulate our equivalent fashion sense. We start observing others.
But (pardon me, this is only my opinion. you are entitled to your personal opinion) has it gone too far in a way? Having read about how some females actually speak to their dolls, and bring them on shopping sprees, i wonder how the next generation will be like.

It's almost like asking, since when did the mobile telephone become indispensable?

Blythe, was a model for photography. yes, she, as a doll, is photogenic.
Because you get to shoot her at different angles and countless clothes changes after, she keeps mum. Perfect model.
I saw some Blythe fashion shoots, and, yes, she looks good.

Photos:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/glamourfae/1636500481/
http://www.blythedoll.com/eng/news/080711_PCYA_sia.jpg
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryuphotostudio/3198642920/

this is a website that is a celebration of style, and beauty:-http://www.trustyourstyle.com/2006/07/blythe-life-i-just-received-these.html
Great photos on the Blythe website too.

But then again.
Did anyone notice that the female, not to mention human, anatomy is NOT big head, small body.

Even at a toy shop, she scares me away with those huge eyes.
It's funny if you think about it. why would a doll scare you away???
I am not a Blythe fan, though i do appreciate the photos/posters.
Just one grouch.

It creeps me out. Pardon my imagination, i imagine a lady, on a shopping trip, asking her blythe,
'Blythe, dear, do you perfer royal purple or teal?'

ok, back to my farmville and restaurant city. lolx

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Transformers

I would very much like to write a review on transformers: revenge of the fallen, but I dont want my review to be a spoiler.

Thus, a snap-summary.

Overall, it's a adrenaline packed movie, and I love how the director actually deals with the family bonds, loyalty, etc..
Plus, the cast gives a solid performance. It's a rare opportunity that all cast members actually support each other to come up with a stunning performance.

Just maybe, maybe, Bumblebee, was a little too emo for a bot. but, what can i say, bot and boy were so close.
the effects were great, though the symbols were a bit too historical for me.

Re: Michael Jackson

MJ, it's just you.

Right now, my thoughts are mostly on the late michael jackson, ---i hate addressing him this way--- and his tribute.
It was touching, and soulful. it ate to the core of my person.
when the lady from the house of state, i think it was Ms. Jackson-Lee, presented MJ with Resolution 600, I was close to breaking down. I was thrilled to know that MJ had contributed so much of his professional life to the world, but saddened by the fact that he will never know it.

However, MJ wouldnt have minded. He gave and gave without the need for anything back.
While researching on Resolution 600, i was in awe of the impact that MJ made in these people's lifes. MJ truly made the world a better place.

Brooke Shields' eulogy was equally touching, and personal. In the very moment that she took to the rostrum, she shook her head to request that the audience not clap for her. I was moved by this very simple act, it shows her character, it shows she knew that MJ was the one who was more deserving.

Add to the fact that MJ had a favourite song, which told of happiness, which told of a universal truth: Smile, and the world smiles with you.

I will always remember Michael Jackson, not for all the tabloids, but for his songs, and his smile. And i hope you do too.

Random...

ello..

i'm back.

Well, back from a stuffed friday, from a tweeny part of hokkaido fair at Tampines Mall and watching transformers.

Stuffed? you ask...

Looking around, and walking around the crowded mini booths, we saw the hairy crab, most prob a huge yummy one, costly $400+ (yeah, SGD. so guess in YEN it's much higher). a few more secs of walking and we pass by a tasty smelling crispy flakey crunchy CROQUETTE stall.
There goes the 5...Darling comes out with a POTATO croquette, and a PUMPKIN croquette.

THEN... the ramen stall. Supposedly, we were huge fans, of RAMEN. but for some reason, we didnt try to queue, just yet.

So on we went, till we reached the front, with this huge poster of the MANJU CAKE.
And me, being the jap flour cake person that i am, just had to queue up to buy it.
precious 15min just for 4 manju cake----2 red bean and 2 custard.

okay, so after TRANSFORMERS: revenge of the fallen, we were back there. AGAIN.

this time at the RAMEN stall, and we couldnt decide.
A bowl costs 16SGD.
YES/ NO/YES/NO....

in the end, i gave up.
rather save the 16, and eat something else.

okay, my stomach is growling. i wonder why.

Michael Jackson.....

this is the best...

I was watching all of MJ music videos, and this is one which i'd like to share.

This is USA for Africa, all of the big names in 1980s, performing together.



MJ, you'll always be KING OF POP....

Singapore Idol!!!

One for the Singapore Idol fever…

my friend got thru the second round, into final 32, so now, i guess he’s aiming for finals, finals. SINGAPORE IDOL.

His original song performance…. Girls love girls.

Foodies

A day of culinary delights and surprises.

First thing in the morning, a little jumbled breakfast, of granola peanut butter balls, thereafter Auntie Anne's cinnamon raisin pretzel.

Of course, there was the Cold Storage trip, where we picked up beef tenderloin, curry powder, unsweetened chocolate, milk, butter, potatoes, carrots, and,... hmmm i cant seem to remember all.
Anyways, the resulting lunch:

Beef Stew with baguette
Chocolate Molten Cake
yup, a rich, satisfying and fulfilling lunch.

Ta ta, for now.

my EQ profile

My emotional profile! I'm above average. what a surprise, since i'm quite slow most of the time.

Your score indicates that you have an above average EQ.

People with an above average EQ are able to recognise and express their feelings without much difficulty.

You probably feel comfortable with intimacy and can give yourself to people. You are fairly happy with who you are and you are able to show love and empathy when it is appropriate. You also express your anger and aren't afraid of crying when hurt. You normally say the right things in the right moments but you can also admit mistakes and learn from them. You accept challenges and commitments and you have an optimistic and positive view of things.

All this make of you good friend and partner. However, there is always room for improvement.

Keep that positive attitude and continue working on relationships with people, goals and achievements, EQ can be always developed. There is plenty of information in books and in the Internet.

Good luck!------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

hmmmm.. it is rather accurate though. Creepy how stuff like these show you a side you never knew existed. :)

A tiring yet lovely day

Hi there,

it's been a while since my last update,
was pretty busy with training and other stuff.
Learnt much from my 'new' training, and it's pretty viable.

Athough i didnt manage to get there on time. :(

ok, my memory is still good, actually remember the location of the shop, and helped my darling with his stuff.

Up next, I guess i will be keeping a exercise schedule, and I really want to take a portfolio, so i will need to look my best..

Thanks again to kawaii TOKYO, and their friendship coupons, i can try out their sunblock. Something i need daily.
Overall, i managed to iron my regalia, but not very satisfied with it, cos i could get it all crease free, esp at the shoulder area.

Back to cramming for ideas.

Ta ta...

Win a LV bag

hi :)

A chance to win a LV bag!!! Simply click on the link!!! how easy is that?!

off to dinner now... tata!!

Via Email: Kawaii TOKYO

hi there, everyone.

Just received a princess discount coupon specially from kawaii TOKYO, and it entitles me to
40% off Melting Dew and Promising Aqua!!!

I personally tried Melting Dew, though it was just once at a stayover. My face felt refreshed, and hydrated too. Amazing.
I wanted to get it since it came out, but now, I sure can!!!

Thanks to kawaii TOKYO friendship coupons!!!

Look to your right, u will see the kawaii TOKYO widget.
It's a pleasant surprise, as kawaii TOKYO iconic lady, Moe, replacing your mouse pointer with flowers from her blooming trolley!!

Have fun, and i'm trying to get my mum to try out the brighten up spots solution called Cupid's Arrow!!!:)

Assignment 1 and Jpops

Thinking on my feet

How do you question the question???

Was rather stumped by this particularly simple question, (yea, i know i'm slow), but, the thing is, I understand the meaning, but i cant seem to phrase the answer.

My answer of a example was so poorly structured, that it didnt sound convincing at all.
I need to brush up on my structure of spoken English.
On that matter, Assignment 2 is due next week.
To write out the questions that come to me, from my chosen question.

I will try to be hardworking and think think think!!!!:)

Jpops: Baby donuts
12 pairs of flavourful donuts, consisting of rather unique tasting donuts filled with cream.

ok, on a hyperactive note, I am too enthusiastic. I am too hyper. I want to be able to think faster. Thus, to channel my thoughts faster, i went over-the-top and bought GP essay book.:)

I will blog about the assignments that were given to me, by Siang, my teacher in GP. hahah
I had a rather interesting astrology newsletter, and i must say that it was quite shocking.
The mentioned 'situation' drew parallels, thus i took a screenshot.


On another note, Restaurant City is significantly showing me my cluttered mind in the seating arrangements.

I'm looking forward to CommuniAsia trade show at Expo, the coming Saturday, and especially Monday.
It would mean I'm graduating!!:)

Ta da for now.

Re: Secret Garden by Fancl

This post is a reply, or continuation of Secret garden.

yeah!!! i won something!!! lucky me

I like their marketing concept. It's really good, generates a curious and impressive buzz around it. Though i wish that I could find the seeds to grow plants such as these in my home. But, i guess Singapore's climate is too hot, too summery. Perfect for tropical plants. Sunflowers? hmmm.. not too sure, my sunflower's kinda stunted. waiting for it to bloom again.

i am suddenly addicted to Wonder Girls. Thanks to Louis. (:
Watch it on youtube:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqtzQkoJS_k

Their music videos are so addictive and hyper….

HAIR worries

i recently bought liese hair cocktail to take care of my tresses, and i must say it’s really good. it left my hair smelling so good and my hair looked so effortlessly silky. and not forgetting frizz free, even after 6 hours!!

i will recommend it to anyone who needs it.

On another note, I found out that this particular product made it to the CLEO’s beauty hall of fame!!! I’m so glad i managed to snag a great find.

visit askCLEO for all other great girly stuff!!!!

a picture of words

here u go.. my latest blog, in a picture.

insane

insane so started playing insaniquarium.

hahha… and the pregnant fish looks too cute. Not to mention it’s name is Prego. I think. Cant remember. too many levels.

and have been enjoying Plants Vs Zombies. Hoping and praying it’s released soon.

‘There’s a zombie on your lawn…..’

It’s been weird how the group dynamics thingy can piss one off. Well.. I was once there so i know how he’s feeling.
haha…

Now for a slightly happier post, check this out. Or maybe you already have.
Leflirtini —–they have great pieces here.